Terry Evans, Amy Peterman, Salina, Kansas, 1976
Gelatin silver print, 29.2 × 21.7 cm
© Terry Evans, courtesy of the Art Institute of Chicago
The ‘i’ in family
is always lower case.
I wasn’t given the smallest
room in my own life. Or,
if I was, it’s because I raised
my hand, a volunteer.
It’s what I deserve
is a martyr’s thought.
I took that room, reaching
out my arms, my hands
could tell themselves they
touched solid walls. Call it
instinct. The way a rabbit
goes still, or a possum plays dead.
A child learns to take up less
space. The young wife wants
to please. The young mother—
both my children hold their life
differently: the full creature
of them inhabiting their full body—
I thought I knew
how far I couldn’t go.