by the time I find the leash
the day is mostly lost wondering
how high the snow might be
where I used to live
wandering inside one white room
to another white room remembering
piles of white outside thin glass
and shiver maybe I should miss
the deep quiet
the cold loveliness
but I don't
when I find the leash
the sun is gone again,
rain falls in unsoft torrent
the doorbell rings
the dog barks
I write a check for fourteen ninety-five
for a forwarded box from my previous life
this is how it goes some days
eaten by my house and missing things
my thoughts walking back
to places my body used to be